Thursday, April 29, 2010

Oh my Oh my... Is the unlucky month of April...

First, my second sister suffered from a slip disc one day when she is coughing. Went for an operation last two weeks ago and was awarded in Tan Tock Seng Hospital. Back a few days ago and now resting at home. Still having difficulties walking and bending down still and sometimes still in great pain...Mum is down with throat infection during her stay and is better now..

Secondly,my nephew hurt his hip yesterday and was complaning about his sore hip. He was limping yesterday and is queuing up with my mum now for X-ray.

Thirdly, received a call from Liusi yesterday that her daughter is being hospitalised at TMC due to fever and lots of phelgm in her lungs. She need to stay for 4 to 5 days to recover completely.

Lastly, I have been having numbness in my right hand and fingers like a bit numb too. This morning, i realise my right hand is swelling a bit. My forefinger is feeling a bit sore too. Try to exercise it and is better now. I think the swelling subsides a bit now.....

I hope by May, everyone will be fine and healthy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Finally...

After 2 months of trying...most importantly, trying to find the connection between the passion to work with eldery...I realise I do not have the calling for it. Everytime i came to work, the feeling is really like a zombie. Although my colleague says that the eldery like me and i can chat with them,but the feeling is different. I can get along with anybody, I can talk and chat, but I still feel my passion with children. I miss my children.

In any new jobs that i am going to seek now, before leaving this place,it is going to be children-related. I have my try and I know my preferences.

To hang out everyday in a place full of eldery is really not suitable for everyone. Some have the calling for them, others have the calling for children, I bet I am the one.

One more sidenote...Am considering this offer by my friend. She is a very mature and trustworthy friend of mine. She intended to open a cafe and asked me to parthnership with her. Without cash, is just employee first. Her ideas are good and she cooks well and she is capable.

I am at my cross road now...

Should i just continue on my path...or criss cross with hers?

Wondering.....

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Work work work...

This job is not as easy as it looks...it involves lot of maturity...as i need to handle conflicts between colleagues and "clients" which are my naughty AUNTIES. In the past, my clients are children. My role is to mould them into responsible, smart and good-natured children with a sense of morality. They are innocent and do not have a mind of their own. It is easier to rule and manage them in these terms. The only difficulty is their playfulness and ignorance. But, they are a bundle of joy. Okay, I am refering to children who are below 3 years old.

Now, I am handling people who are more senior with me.

"I eat salt more than you eat rice!"
This is one common statement to describe their life experiences.

Nevertheless, some lived with people around disliking them but they are not aware of it, or they do not want to admit. They do not know why as they have poor self-reflective skills or they are too stubborn. Some people may be very sensitive to what others say and are not ready to receive comments outright.

I think that I am someone who is emerged in a world full of decent people. My friends, family and loved ones are geuine people. They are full of love. They are, as you say, simple to handle. The reason being that they have a satisfactory level of self confidence.

I am now in sector of human service. To service the human. In another words, to help the weaker ones. Although I may not be as strong as i thought, but my bad encounters (including quarrel with auntie and confrontation by colleague) lead me to conclude that I will be surrounded by people who need help. And they may be sensitive, unreasonable, stubborn, emotional and more. All these reflects an existance of insecurity in them. Instead of opposing them, i should give them more empathy and be able to accept them.

I will try my best not to be defeated by bad experiences and complaints. Being in my "MUST BE" world is making things very difficult for me. Although I am not being appreciated by people, i should take it with just a pinch of salt.