YearninG

Somehow I know it may not be possible. But I am 6 days late. But I still wanna have a false hope that it is true. Although deep inside me, I think is only a 50% chance. 

I have been wanting to have, but not him. We are not on the same page on this. Reason being financial difficulties. Well, to me is just an excuse. I can feel that his possible fear of not having the yearn for it.

We might not manage if I really get what I wish. But life is always full of challenges. But he is not in good shape himself.

Meanwhile, just to blog this as a memorable joyful feeling. The possibility of having it.

But the truth might be.....