I have never been so sad for a long time...The last time is about five years ago? I remembered the feeling of having tears rolling down the face even at the moments that you don't want it to flow. And now, I have these moments again...
Bambi has been detected with irregular heartbeats during one of her medical visits. The vet told my sister that her heartbeat stop a few times when he is hearing. Before the medical visit, Bambi has been to the groomer and has a few "quarrels" with the dogs outside. Maybe thatshe is too excited and traumatised and that resulted in her irregular heartbeat? But my sister (who is a nurse) went home and count her heartbeat and it is irregular too. The vet actually say her condition is very serious. Haiz. And my mum added it will stop anytime. I do hope she is exagerating. She will be doing her ECG next week at the vet to confirm her situation.
Bambi is now at Ang mo kio with me as my sister's house is going through a messy project of painting. When Bambi is with me, i can't help but to cry. I told nick that I am very upset about her situation. Now, i could understand his feeling when he found out his mum need a pacemaker. But what about dogs? Can dogs have pacemaker?
Nick console me and say "She is old already. At least she has all of you who love her so much and it is better that she is gone in her sleep then to suffer any pain."
I have always been crying in those doggy movies cause I know I can't face it when it is my turn. It is really so heartbreaking. Maybe after her, I don't want a dog anymore.
