The photoshoot on Wednesday went on very well. Makeup is smooth,i did not freak out because the makeup artist is very gentle. I love the hair she did for me too. She brought along some nice hair accessories too. We went on a van with a photographer, his assistant and my makeup artist. my makeup artist did a great job of keeping my hair neat and my makeup pretty along the trip. She even carry an umbrella and kept helping me to block the sun with it. It is really very nice of her.

Meanwhile, the photographer and his asst try very hard to let me and Nick get natural pose. Phyllis thought it will be chicken feet to me but that is totally NOT!!! GOD!!! I think i am too posy and care too much of my image. So in the end, i look fake,unreal and very stiff!! hahahh!!! The asst even commented that I look like a robot!! :P

Wonder how the pictures will turn out to be. I think i look very mature in makeup.


This is my makeup after a whole day of photoshoot.

Am losing soem motivation on job seeking. Am resting now. Gonna Jia You soon!! jia you jia you!!!

Will be meeting my dip in counselling coursemates tommorrow. Hope the outing will be fun. :)

The marriage counselling yesterday rocks!!!

Darling really lets out a lot of information and the counsellor can realise where he is coming from and gave him a lot of understanding and empathy. And from the session, i then realised how important I am to Nick. It made me feel very touched.

The counsellor commented that we are very transparent towards each other and our communication is very good. Just that, we have that missing link to make things work. As i told her, we are poor at conflict resolution. The counsellor kindly provided encourgement and ideas to us. She told us that she can feel the love we have for each other and she can feel how much we want to make things work. She even told us that we will be on very good terms if we can work things out. :)

The counsellor also reminded us that it is about US, and not ME or HIM. I would always bear that in heart.

After this session, i can feel the joy of getting married. FINALLY!!!!!!

Else, it is always about STRESS.

I can finally see the picture and our problem. We are both too selfish. We must learn to give support to one another and not to expect him to support me else he will be very stressed and vice versa. WE are ONE.

Mag went with me to "My Dream wedding" and took this picture illegally. Hee Hee!!!


It is my night gown for photoshoot. It is actually sky blue in color.


My bridal shoe from PAZZION. Love it to bits.


A closer view.


A list of things to get ready for tommorrow.


My manicure that lasted.

Hope things will go well tommorrow! And hope i will not be too tired!!

Bad news.... CCF rejected me... *sob sob*.... There is me,on the way to apply for other jobs! Jia you!!!! :)

Went to Bukit Timah yesterday and darling took leave to accompany me. I know I am a bad influence right? :P But he needs a break from his messy work and thus the last minute pong tang. It was a cooling walk and my third time there. Was introduced to this wonderful route by Bee Lian. Ever since,I try to go once a week. We met at 8am to eat our breakfast and slowly made our way there. After the walk,darling and me went to Courts which is just opposite to take a look at our new bed and bed frame. Went to test on the different mattress. Land our eyes on a white PVC bed frame with a medium firm mattress from "Sleep clinic". We did not get an excellent bed frame and bed as we will be getting a new set of furniture for our new house. After that, we went to have a meal.

By the time we reached home, it is already 4pm. Have a nice shower to get rid of the super sticky feeling and rotted till dinner time. While rotting, we were playing with the two dolls sitting on my bed. I guess only darling has this kind of "kiddish-ness" to blend into mine. That is why we are together.:) Our frequency are really much the same.

Quarrels did let us know each other better and i have learnt that i cannot always looked at some one's flaws. And we should be role models ourselves. Dun expect our partners to be angels when we are demons ourselves.

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Just had a "blood-vomitting" argument with my nephew. He wanted to eat some biscuits and have been eating it before his meals. Being concerned that he will not be able to eat his dinner, i told him that he cannot eat it. He tried to grab it from the table and i stopped him and he just keep bugging me for it and keep wanting to grab it away by force. I realise i really really dislike him. When i see his face which he kept arguing with me, i feel like slapping him. Especially when i am teaching him Mathematics, he would spent time arguing with me about how to do the sums!! Which is obviously wrong!!!! I must always shout at him then he will keep his mouth shut. Every time when i teach him, it will always land into some big quarrel. It is really a challenge to handle him.

When i am handling him, i will always turned into a demon. I knew that i cannot blame him as my brother and brother-in-law are not good role models themselves. They expect their children to be angels when they are not setting a good example themselves.

Because of this, i wanted to work hard with Nick to be good role parents. It is really not easy to discipline the next generation. I will need plenty of tolerance, love and patience. I am learning. Still learning!

Went to videojug (the website which my lecturer who taught us "relationship issues" love to show us videos from this site).

It talks about the 4 types of person u are when you and your parthner are having an argument. Which type are you?


Conflicts & Arguments:
Couples Fighting Styles: The Defensive Attacker




Conflicts & Arguments:
Couples Fighting Styles: The Low Level Attacker




Conflicts & Arguments:
Couples Fighting Styles: The Shock Absorber




Conflicts & Arguments:
Couples Fighting Styles: The Peacemaker



Notice that Nick is more of "The Defensive Attacker" and "Shock Absorber".

Meanwhile for me, i am more of the combination of all types except "The Defensive Attacker".I guess i can only be "The Peacemaker" when my mood is good. :P

I went for an interview yesterday at Children Cancer Foundation. The position i apply for is Program Officer. The main job scope is to organise camps or activities for the children at CCF and to work with the committee members which are formed by volunteers. One of the job scope is to work with volunteers, sponsors and social workers. The job would require me to visit the cancer children at KK hospital once a week to build rapport. Weekends and weeknights might be burnt too but can be claim with timeoff. I was given a mini-test before the interview. Luckily, i participated in Rainbow Camp for two years and my experience there helped me a lot with this interview. The only thing that i did not perform well is my budgeting. :( The person who interview me say she will get back to me by end of next week if i will get this job as there are still a lot of applicants. *Cross my fingers..i wish i can get this job!*

Hopefully, i can get this position. Meanwhile, i will still work hard to source for other jobs. :)

Carole is still the vainpot Carole. Went out with Bee Lian and could not stop buying these two makeup items. Got one pink eyeliner and lash extension mascara from "The makeup store". It really magnifies the eye!!!! Love it to bits!!! ehehehheheh...

p/s: Hmmm, i wonder if Phyllis has tried out her makeup.....

It was a sunday and Nick and me went Bukit Timah Hill for a leisure climbing session. Although so, it sweat me out and i was so tired after the session.


----->> Noticed that age is catching up. Yes, sad to say. When this number "3" strikes, it seems that physically there is a change too. You got to sleep earlier, you cannot be an night owl anymore, it is easier to be FAT, it is easier to be breathless and very tired. Ever since i have my fever virus last year, i can feel i have fatigue for the first time of my life!!! It is a kind of tired feeling when your heart start to pump so fast and you get a breathless as you are so tired and you MUST rest else you will feel very bad and breathless. I get that feeling now and then when i overtire myself. When i am young, i will find difficulty in breathing and i gonna take huge intake of air when i dawn till morning but i do not feel so bad. Now, i really have to take care of my body. Therefore, exercise and ample sleep is more than important now! I get breathless now when i am nervous. God, i sounds like an old lady. I am trying my best to still keep my butt moving even now i am suppose to rest and find a job. I try my best not to take afternoon naps as one will get fatter and also, it disrupt your sleep. I surrender now by the clock strikes one. I will be too tired!!! I got to sleep before one. Is that a bad sign? :(

Search from internet, and found this:

Symptoms of FATIGUE include the following:

- Weakness, lack of energy, tiredness, exhaustion (HAVE!!)
- Passing out or feeling as if you are going to pass out (DON'T HAVE)
- Palpitations (feeling your heart beating) (HAVE!! AND QUITE HARD AND FAST!! NEED TO CALM MYSELF DOWN!!)
- Dizziness (DON'T HAVE)
- Vertigo (DON't HAVE)
- Shortness of breath (HAVE)

Prevention

- Manage your stress: Practice relaxation. Take time out for yourself.
- Get exercise: Start slowly. Do something you like. Find a good time to exercise.Find a partner.
- Check out your medications.
- Improve your diet: Eat a good breakfast (whole grain cereal, fruit, milk). Add more fruits and vegetables.
- Stop the caffeine habit.
- Give up smoking.
- Have sex with your spouse or partner.
- Get enough sleep: Have a routine. Go to bed at the same time every night.
- Avoid coffee, tea, or caffeinated drinks after 6 pm.
- Drink no alcohol after dinner and decrease the total amount of alcohol (alcohol interferes with sleep patterns).

p/s: Do anyone of you thinks you suffer from fatigue tooo????

Our preparation for our wedding shots. This wedding thing is getting me stressed up. New responsibilities and roles. I think this contributes to my fatigue too. I have to remind myself to stay positive as life is full of challenges. I cannot be defeated by them! I have to make the best out of everything i have!!! << --------


Ok, i got to exercise!!!!

Continue my story...went to CHAPTER 2 for Nick's haircut.









There are more layers and sharp edges to his hair. I think is not that obvious but he certainly looked better.

A photo journey of my weight gaining and weight loss in progress...
Through the pictures,i notice my looks changed too...
From younger to more mature...
I seems to have lost a sense of youth and transform to a much more woman look..
This is a good entry to keep....
to remind me never to bounce back to my FATTY period again...
ever again....

Before i met him (Year 2008)











Transformation start after met him....Teh most "Ah soh" moments in my life.













And thunder lightning struck, as i thought i looked good!! So i decided to slim down!!!




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Basically, from THIS



to THIS!!!